A quick rant about tone and double standards.

Neurotypicals are so hypocritical at times and its frustrating. For example I get a lot of flack from my folks about the tone of my voice (or lack thereof). I'm constantly misinterpreted as being angry or confrontational, or sometimes afraid for some reason? Or an assumption is made about my train of thought or my thought process behind something. I hate misinformation, it can be dangerous, and I don't like people to think things that simply aren't true - having an opinion of course is fine but I don't like when someone believes something that is plainly and factually false. So I correct people, oh no I see how you came to that conclusion (or maybe i really don't), but that's not right, THIS is what was going through my mind, maybe that will help them to understand me better... after all, mistakes are bound to happen so we speak different mental languages...

So why am I NEVER believed? Why am I always told I must be lying or mistaken in how I'm feeling or how I processed something? If I made a mistake, fine, but no apparently I must be causing problems on purpose! What the other person has decided I'm like is true - no matter what I tell them to the contrary!

But if I come forward and say hey your tone of voice hurt me emotionally, that you sounded very accusatory for no reason, I'm mistaken again. I'm crazy. I don't know any better. "I never accused you of anything! I've never been angry with you in my life!" He says. Angrily.

Why do I have to always try to meet people in the middle with things, only for them to keep taking a step back, then telling me it's my fault and I'm not putting in enough effort to communicate? I feel like I'm going insane.

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  • "Please stop putting YOUR motives into my words".

    Memorise this. We don't have telepathy and neither do Non-autistics who are a majority and used to being able to 'read' one another. 

    And then if you can remove yourself from individuals who fail to put the same time and effort into appreciating and understanding you as you put into them. 

    Enough research has shown me we have different motives and are driven by different things. What do they want? While it's ok to express kindness, it's incredibly difficult when others don't do the same.

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  • "Please stop putting YOUR motives into my words".

    Memorise this. We don't have telepathy and neither do Non-autistics who are a majority and used to being able to 'read' one another. 

    And then if you can remove yourself from individuals who fail to put the same time and effort into appreciating and understanding you as you put into them. 

    Enough research has shown me we have different motives and are driven by different things. What do they want? While it's ok to express kindness, it's incredibly difficult when others don't do the same.

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