i've always felt like i could 'feel' depression... down, low energy, irritable, in a coma... but anxiety - that's always been a mystery - except for when i just get a anxiety 'attack' or just fearful, etc... but i'm wondering about just constant anxiety. for example, i feel i always am wary of danger, very careful about protection against theft, worry over activities and events so much that i just have written them out of my life. ...
i think 'hiding' in my house hides my anxiety from me. i think i use avoidance of things (no more air travel, no hotels, no movies, no crowds, all complicated by covid) a lot, and so also --- my anxiety might just be hidden from me. i have grown to 'accept' i will never do those things again. maybe that's the wrong long term approach.....
i prefer also not watching the news a lot ---- it's pretty disturbing, the world now.
anyone else experience anxiety this way?
i'm thinking of trying a medication for this --- have been trying ritalin for about six months, trying to get the right dose. of course, ritalin is not for anxiety.... but now wondering about trying some mild anti-anxiety thing, to help me cope with life.
thank you!
