Published on 12, July, 2020
Hi there everyone, new here!
Bit about me - I am currently a 23 year old self diagnosed high functioning Autistic female who is currently on the very long waiting list for an assessment.
I was wondering if anyone else here feels the same as me and weather its common for this community
I have no desire whatsoever to be in a romantic relationship. All my friends and family are either married or seeing someone and I seem to just not have any desire for it, although strangely I do feel jealous when seeing it, even though for myself I just don't see it ever happening. I guess its more due to my social issues than anything else. I don't find other people interesting, when people talk to me its like its going through one ear and out the other. I have really never plucked up the courage to go on dates without a stiff few drinks first. Same goes for friendships. I have friends yet really I couldn't care less if I lost them or never saw them again. I'm not a mean or distant person, I just really don't need social interaction to live a full life.
I feel perfectly happy living alone, being alone and having a solitary life with my pets! Anyone else feel the same? Or am I bad person who needs to change...
I like to have many relationships with different people and enjoy time with them all. I'm not very skilled, by nature, at being around another person for long stretches of time, making that be the "relationship". They alwasy get upset that I am not available enough or not available the way they would like.
It was the expected things when I was young so I did try.
I've always felt the best in my own little distinct space to work on my creative pursuits, which also irritated the "other".
I like to have close friends, confidants and correspondents best.
I don't enjoy groups or more than, say 6 for very long. Sometimes 4 is too much.