I'm not coping to well at the moment. I'm finding life really hard, the struggle with ASD, depression is sinking its teeth in and I feel like I'm almost out of energy to keep going now. I'm tired, I'm stressed, overwhelmed and so depressed. I was hoping things would get better but they never do, if anything it just keeps getting worse. I got my first job last December lost it in January because I couldn't cope, so pathetic, even my dad says I should have been stronger and tried harder. Maybe I should have I don't know, my anxiety rose just couldn't do it couldn't cope. I'm lonely to never had any friends, at school I was the loser girl who was always on her own, that's not changed. I did have this support worker who used to see me told me to make a list of good things about me and my day each day but never could think of anything, she's gone now anyway. Lost funding or something. So I'm on my own fighting the fight of life. Feel like I'm losing it.
I'm just tired of all this, of life. It's so depressing and the fact that I have ASD as well is just frustrating. I mean it explains a lot about me which I was always curious about but it doesn't help the situation as there's nothing that can be done about it. So it just adds to the distress. But I'm open to trying to improve my life and myself so thought I would give this a go.
