Hi,
i was supposed to have my initial autism assessment last week and it got cancelled which instantly spun me into struggling for the rest of the week.
i am pretty certain that I am autistic which i dont want to sound bad at all, I just feel it 100% fits as do my parents and some of my friends.
Since this realisation though i have been struggling more and more, I have been in therapy for years for various things like BPD which then resulted in trauma therapy and now that i am on ‘top’ of the trauma the signs of autism (i know i am self diagnosing at this point) show so clearly.
I dont know how to accept that if it is autism, therapy wont help me. I thought i would be able to work through everything but some things just do not go away. I am so worried, i dont know how to cope, I am doing a degree that i feel I might have to drop because I am not managing life in general. I struggle so badly with routine often getting stuck on something for hours, being in the bath is the worst one of those, i can be in there for up to 4 hours.
Is this normal for this stage?
does it get easier and what can i do to make it easier?
