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I've just had a horrible evening and I'm not really sure what to do.

Abigail

I have been feeling something building up since about 12:00 and it has all come on at once. I have been feeling overwhelmed all day today because I have 3 assignments for college (UK) due tomorrow (2 of which are final submissions).

I had just got in the shower and the shower curtain wasn't working properly. The last person to go into the shower (my mum I think) had put it away weird and it was sticking to itself so I couldn't pull it around the bath properly. I think that might have been what set all these actions into motion because after that the water from the shower felt like it was really sharp and piercing my skin (it wasn't actually doing that, I wasn't hurt physically in any way). I felt like I needed to just spin or run around or something but at the same time I couldn't move, it was like my brain wanted me to run around but it also wasn't moving my legs so I was just hoping from one foot to the other like when you don't know which way to go and you can't decide which way to try. I wanted to curl up into a ball and just be sucked into the ground but at the same time, I felt trapped because I was in the shower and only had the space of the bath available. I felt like I couldn't breathe and that I was being stupid. I also felt like my head was being pulled back and my eyes went cloudy. I think I may have disassociated but I'm not sure.

I have had these things all happen to me separately, but never all together like this. even though the main bulk of it has calmed down now, I keep zoning out and losing track of where I am. It is taking so much effort to think of what I am trying to write and push the keys down. They feel like they are stuck but I know they aren't and that it is just my brain because my exhausted and it doesn't want to do anything.

I have managed to get out of the shower and am under my weighted blanket, trying to calm down before I go to sleep otherwise I know I will sleep terribly.

I am now sooooo tired and I have to get so much college work done. I know I won't get it done tonight but at the same time, I need to do it. Does anyone know what I should do?

  • Make a list of the things that you feel need to be done for tomorrow. Try and think how long it will take you to do each task. And work out when the latest time is that you can hand it in by. Then you can either adjust your schedule to fit in the time you need or compromise sleeping to get it complete (depending on how long you need.) Is there anyone at home who can help you with your assignments? As I know how challenging a change of schedule can be.