Morning all.
Well I only went to see (phone call) the doctor yesterday!
It felt like the hardest thing I’ve ever done. Just wanted to share what happened in case others are also going mad with the billions of thoughts going through your head of…. Am I autistic… and analysing everything you do and questioning why…
so I finally got the courage to call for an appointment - I only mentioned this was about me and autism. Current climate meant I got a phone call back (which I felt was better). Doc called and wanted just to talk through why I thought that there maybe a possibility I’m autistic or feel that way (I’m 46). I had already self analysed myself to death and been though the standard tests and scored relatively high. But I also made sure I could give specific examples over my life of how I felt. How I acted or should i say reacted to social situations. Etc etc etc… this was the best thing I did as I could open up and really talk about it all (although this was so hard talking about myself out loud - felt horrible but necessary).
he was really good and understanding. On the call for over 20 mins. Didn’t feel rushed. He said although he wasn’t an expert he had limited knowledge around the subject and was going to refer me.
as soon as I hung up there was a huge release of emotion. But I also felt that my mind was immediately able to process that something will happen. I can stop over processing this and try to relax my brain and get on with the day to day - which has been terrible for the last few months since the penny dropped over this. I know the process will take forever…. But it has to start sometime and I’ve taken that step.
sorry for the long post.
