I don't know why but I always seem to forget stuff that I have to do, and if I remember it, I don't have the energy to do it. It's like my body won't let me do the thing I need to do and my brain is shouting at me to do it. It gets me in real trouble because I keep forgetting to do my assignment work for college which I need to get into university. It sometimes makes me feel dizzy like my head is constantly spinning with itself trying to get me to do what I need to do but not wanting to do it at the same time, constantly arguing. It tends to happen more when I am relaxing either eating or going to sleep. Sometimes it gets so bad that I stop what I am doing halfway through doing what I have been trying to do all day like I am lagging and trying to catch up and I just start staring into nothing and it's like I am floating away because I can't hear anything when it happens. It can happen with anything from doing my teeth or making food to something that I was looking forward to doing for ages (usually baking a cake) and then I just don't want to do it because it feels like a chore, especially if I bought all the stuff for it the previous day.
Does anyone know what is causing this? Is it Autism or could it be something else because I do get panic attacks but I haven't been diagnosed with anxiety? or is it something else entirely?
Does anyone have any tips for this? It is affecting me a lot more recently and I have been crying myself to sleep some nights or been lying awake for what feels like hours and just as I drift off my brain starts talking to me again and I am wide awake. Some nights I don't get to sleep until about 2:00 in the morning, which is especially bad on days I have college because I start at 9:00 but to get there on time I have to leave the house at 7:10 to get the 7:30 bus so I wake up at 6:00 o'clock in the morning.
(I'm not sure if I have posted this in the right place so if I haven't then someone let me know and I will move it to the correct place.)
