Skill level?

I once did programming in the 90s but can’t remember it now. As well I did music theory and a dissertation on the collaboration of Schoenberg and Kandinski which I got a distinction for. But now I don’t even know where middle C is on a staff. I stared a Biomedical Science degree before changing to computing then graphics but don’t remember much about Anatomy but maybe retained a science intuition or maybe as Plinky says an abstract of the subject.  Another situation was I trained for three years to be a counsellor at a college. However it was very hard to do it at a professional level.  But I do retain some abstract of the training to help others in a kind of peer support way even if it is only just empathic reflective mirroring.  

I am on a waiting list for an assessment and I only just came across spiky skills in autistic people and it would definitely explain some of my own history.  Spiky skills can mean having education or skills but finding it hard to apply them. 

I wonder are you concerned about how you are. If so then it is ok to accept oneself. As well it’s ok if you have to pace yourself or switch between activities. 

Forgive me if I am not understanding your post but I hope what I write is relevant. 

in the 80s I did a Humanities degree. We read books and wrote essays although it took me three times longer than others to write essays. When I left college I started voluntary work at Citizens Advice I soon went to pieces because we had to seek and co-ordinate obtaining and returning stored information on shelves. Instead I ended doing voluntary work for Age Concern which involved making oldies tea, scones and beans on toast which I could do. 

I suppose what I am saying is if people want to learn stuff then learn it even if it is just to get meaning or enjoyment out of life. 

As well with computing I had to give up the idea of full time work because of mental illness. However I have helped old people to learn how to use computers but only a couple of hours a week so still came in use.

As well there have been times where I have been too ill to do anything. Also once I would believe if I can educate myself in a subject then I can apply it but now I believe education and work can be different things.

I hope you no longer wish to self harm. Self harm can come from how we value ourselves and we all have value as human beings in different ways.

I once did programming in the 90s but can’t remember it now. As well I did music theory and a dissertation on the collaboration of Schoenberg and Kandinski which I got a distinction for. But now I don’t even know where middle C is on a staff. I stared a Biomedical Science degree before changing to computing then graphics but don’t remember much about Anatomy but maybe retained a science intuition or maybe as Plinky says an abstract of the subject.  Another situation was I trained for three years to be a counsellor at a college. However it was very hard to do it at a professional level.  But I do retain some abstract of the training to help others in a kind of peer support way even if it is only just empathic reflective mirroring.  

I am on a waiting list for an assessment and I only just came across spiky skills in autistic people and it would definitely explain some of my own history.  Spiky skills can mean having education or skills but finding it hard to apply them. 

I wonder are you concerned about how you are. If so then it is ok to accept oneself. As well it’s ok if you have to pace yourself or switch between activities. 

Forgive me if I am not understanding your post but I hope what I write is relevant. 

in the 80s I did a Humanities degree. We read books and wrote essays although it took me three times longer than others to write essays. When I left college I started voluntary work at Citizens Advice I soon went to pieces because we had to seek and co-ordinate obtaining and returning stored information on shelves. Instead I ended doing voluntary work for Age Concern which involved making oldies tea, scones and beans on toast which I could do. 

I suppose what I am saying is if people want to learn stuff then learn it even if it is just to get meaning or enjoyment out of life. 

As well with computing I had to give up the idea of full time work because of mental illness. However I have helped old people to learn how to use computers but only a couple of hours a week so still came in use.

As well there have been times where I have been too ill to do anything. Also once I would believe if I can educate myself in a subject then I can apply it but now I believe education and work can be different things.

I hope you no longer wish to self harm. Self harm can come from how we value ourselves and we all have value as human beings in different ways.