I don't even know if it's the aspergers that's effecting me, but ever since I knew about I had it and got more aware of it, certain things started to change about me and symptoms that I had got worse...?
It got better the last few weeks but I really don't know why at random times, like today, I just feel really annoyed, depressed, and angry for people not wanting them to talk to me and wanting them to stay away from me for no reason... I thin the only closest thing what caused me to feel like this was probably the family dinner time today, I was gaming online then my mum shouted at me to tell me to help prepare for dinner downstairs, I then said that was quick, since we normally have dinner at a later time, I had to quit my online game when I just started playing a few rounds online, then my feelins of anger, depression etc started from there!!!! But I can't believe I still feel annoyed, depressed up to THIS minute! It surely couldn't of been the finner thing what caused it right? I don't know what else to do but to write all this down, after I finished dinner, I just felt bored like all the time, I even lost interest in the things I love to do like I didn't find gaming fun, wasn't in the mood to go online, couldn't watch a damn movie cos of my stupid "ritual" that I have to do before I even start watching the movie, then that made me even more angry and annoyed....
About a month ago, I was worried about employment but I thought to myself that If I get a job, I wouldn't have any of these "problems" and I'll be normal and i'll be in the mood to do everything without any worries or depression, a week ago, I sucessfully got a apprenticeship which made me really happy... but now, all the symptoms I had before are worse again!!
Why is this!!!!??
