Hey seeking advice regarding asd. Hope u can help me.
Some back ground so your in the picture. I'm a mum of three two girls and a boy. There all in their teens now except for my youngest daughter. Kids our angry with me. My youngest asked me why I don't hug her and I couldn't give her an answer. I've never been able to hug or cuddle anybody I've always been that way I didn't hug my own mum god rest her soul. And my teens want to go out with their friends but I won't let them because of Covid so there mad at me for that. I don't think it's a crime to protect them I'm really worried about Covid it killed my mum and one of my work mates.
I keep the house as clean as possible and only do online shopping but the kids think I'm being unfair I'm just trying to keep them safe that's all.
I worked in a little shop but I'm jobless now it's closed down. Last year's lock down bought it to its knees unfortunately. I'm really upset bout that as id worked there for nearly ten years. I hate change so doing another job elsewhere is gone be hard, if I can find one that is.
Having problems with my other half also we're not as close any more and we never talk about anything. Not sure what I can do about it. I've never said a lot but it's worser now. I don't want to lose him but I feel the connection is breaking between us.
I've been washing my hands repeatedly witch is to do with my ocd apparently but since Covid ive used bleach and now my hands are very painful and red looks like blisters but I can't stop I don't want to get ill.
So finding life a bit tasking at the moment. I'm not a bad person I just want to keep everyone safe and well.
My daughter the older one said she thinks I should see a doctor but the doctor I always liked has left three years back and I don't do well meeting new people so am afraid to see any new ones. Also I don't see the point, doctors make sick people better don't they and I'm not sick.
Any advice would be helpful :)
