No one wants to understand

Roswell, have you ever considered that it could be you're own thinking that is the problem, and not other people?

Do you understand other people?  I don't think you do, nor do I think you've ever tried. If you did, or if you had, you would know that people don't want to spend a lot of time around depressed people, nor do they want to be an audience for someone's stories of woe and sorrow. Not normal people, anyway.

It's not the world's job to give you a reason to want to stay alive, it's yours. It's something we all do on a daily basis. For many people, it's their love of their children, family, careers or hobbies that motivate them to stay alive. 

Why not spend some time visiting or volunteering at your local hospice and sit and talk with people who are dying?

Depression is selfish. Depressed people are extremely self-absorbed. Their thinking has become focused exclusively on themselves——but the problem is that they are focussed on negative thoughts about their perceived troubles, traumas and sorrows.  If you ever want to truly overcome your depression, you're going to have to stop wallowing in your personal stories of trauma (and expecting everyone else to listen to them) and start seeing the goodness in your life and wanting to tell people about that.

It's going to take a shift in consciousness on your part. And change is scary. When you've lived as a depressed persona for so long, and after you have invested so much time and energy into crafting and living that persona, and even when it weighs so heavily on you that you want to stop living, living without it can feel just just as scary. 

You can start small by taking the negative thing you say about yourself and others and flipping them round to the opposite. Spending some time doing this can give you a glimpse of life beyond the depressive curtain.

I hope you can do it yourself. And if you can't do it on your own, I hope something or someone comes along to give you the short, sharp, shock you need to snap you out of your depressive mindset. 

Beyond the darkness, behind the blame, underneath the self-pity, and resentment you feel, is a bright light, an indescribable joy and sense of contentedness and connectedness—it just takes you to identify the thoughts you're believing, the ones running in your brain that are causing all the sadness and depression, and then putting them though some honest and genuine enquiry. 

I'm thinking about what you've said, it doesn't seem to fully align with what my actual reality is. But I am taking it into consideration.

Depression is a prison you have made for yourself. You're the prisoner and you're the prison guard. You're the only one who has the keys to open the cell door.  

Depression is a prison you have made for yourself. You're the prisoner and you're the prison guard. You're the only one who has the keys to open the cell door.