I'm on about building a PC, but looking at even just CPUs that I could choose (let alone other parts) is so confusing and daunting that I postpone looking further. There's so many different CPUs and different configurations with other parts. I have many games on my PC right now, but they never grab me to continue playing. There's so much I want to do like learn about say political issues, play more games, etc, but it's either so confusing/overwhelming that I stop looking further, or it doesn't grab my attention that I leave it out of being unengaged with it. It leaves me so unconfident of my own abilities not only me struggling with these things, but others succeeding, that I neglect looking further, resulting in a self fulfilling prophecy of keeping me from understanding, feeding my lack of confidence. Sometimes I see someone mention something like a game that I hadn't heard of, and wonder how did they find that? I don't know what they do that I don't. I seemingly can't look uo/research as well as these people
I really want to play OpenTTD, a transport management game, but I couldn't get my head around how the train signals worked, let alone things like the economy. Seeing people with fully developed transport networks disheartens me, seeing how I struggled with something that's key to laying the game. I've played Trails in the Sky, but figuring out strategies and different orbment configurations confused me. It wasn't the basics of how they worked, I understood that, it's just how to make the right (best) selection to get the best capabilites from each of my characters
I'm on about going to uni, to see if that could give me an understanding of something, perhaps learning skills that could help me with these issues, but not only am I so unenthused by almost all courses, I don't think I'd be able to pay enough attention to succeed (why I failed my a levels)
I know this is all over the place, but I'm not sure how else to compile my thoughts