Concentration difficulties

I'm on about building a PC, but looking at even just CPUs that I could choose (let alone other parts) is so confusing and daunting that I postpone looking further. There's so many different CPUs and different configurations with other parts. I have many games on my PC right  now, but they never grab me to continue playing. There's so much I want to do like learn about say political issues, play more games, etc, but it's either so confusing/overwhelming that I stop looking further, or it doesn't grab my attention that I leave it out of being unengaged with it. It leaves me so unconfident of my own abilities not only me struggling with these things, but others succeeding, that I neglect looking further, resulting in a self fulfilling prophecy of keeping me from understanding, feeding my lack of confidence. Sometimes I see someone mention something like a game that I hadn't heard of, and wonder how did they find that? I don't know what they do that I don't. I seemingly can't look uo/research as well as these people

I really want to play OpenTTD, a transport management game, but I couldn't get my head around how the train signals worked, let alone things like the economy. Seeing people with fully developed transport networks disheartens me, seeing how I struggled with something that's key to laying the game. I've played Trails in the Sky, but figuring out strategies and different orbment configurations confused me. It wasn't the basics of how they worked, I understood that, it's just how to make the right (best) selection to get the best capabilites from each of my characters

I'm on about going to uni, to see if that could give me an understanding of something, perhaps learning skills that could help me with these issues, but not only am I so unenthused by almost all courses, I don't think I'd be able to pay enough attention to succeed (why I failed my a levels)

I know this is all over the place, but I'm not sure how else to compile my thoughts

  • Hi

    I'm a gamer myself 25 years now, I had 2 collegaues at school that had PCs at that time, and I spent a lot time at their houses learning basics about gaming as well as hiding from outside world, it was basically: they were playing and I was watching Stuck out tongue.

    Then I had my first PC, mom bought me on my 18th birthday. First game I played was Fallout, so it was like 

    unconfident of my own abilities

    and I did not speak english yet, so I was translating everything, but using trial and error, I moved forward. I played a lot games since then, most of strategies and RPGs ever made. among it Transport Tycoon probably percursor to Open TTD, I made my eldest sister play it too LOL. 

    These days I look for games that are advertised ''Extremely difficult''. ''For insane and suicidal'' etc. I play them on highest dificulty and finish always. Sometimes it takes months. So latest RPG I played was Mass Effect 3, they do not make many of those these days. But I found few nice turn-based strategies Urtuk: The Desolation, the most difficult game I have ever played, and Battle Brothers, I have kraken left to kill, I tried it many times with no luck so far, obviusly I am doing ti wrong, but like I said trial and error makes you move forward.

    I failed my a levels

    I did almost as well, polish equivalent, and I am good at math. If I did fail I would try again. For me giving up feels like mental seppuku, and I am done with it,

    So what other choice is there? Nobody knows things at first, you spent your life learning things, just focus on things you get absorbed with, not something sold you by others, and don't compare yourself to others, we do it our way and at our speed. Ask million questions yourself if you find someone you would consider a guru in something you want to find out