The more I think of society and the Neurotic / Neurotypical brains way of perceiving and engaging in the world around, the less I'm driven to be part of it. The mirroring, mundane repetitions, the desperation for 'meaning' for domination. I may be too intense or too sensory or too pragmatic but it's a bit... epic to find genuine understanding and connexion. To have eureka moments on the mechanics of things. Sure, I'm dedicated now to learning how to build a halogen bulb and I'm careful about who I engage with and not being too overwhelmed by others and wearing ear plugs in shops... but the more I know about and research autism and reflect, I think of NTs like, Not my Crusade, Not my Unit.
Anyone else feel this? Anyone with a more fun analogy than Circus/Monkey?