HI All,
I'm 22NB, and the older I get and the more I continue to struggle as much as I do, I'm afraid I'm never going to be able to truly function on my own, and that's a thought that's been eating me lately. I can't drive, I have no call no showed every job I've had after a few months just because my social anxiety and overstimulation can't take it. I'm in college at the moment, but I have no clue how I'm going to maintain a job after my degree.
I struggle to even be in public half the time. Because I'm perceived as "high functioning" to my family, partner, and friends, they expect me to be able to do navigate life almost as simply as they can, and knowing I haven't reached this expectation leaves me upset for them and myself. I want to be self sustaining, I want to "function", but I also want to be realistic in what I can and can't accomplish, it's a hard balance to find.
