Hi everyone
I am writing this because I am very concerned about my obsessions' with things which I feel have always been part of me. I really like things that people my age have long grown out like Build a Bear factory and in the past obsessions like this have landed me financial trouble. It was only when I noticed try not to let it control me and having limit on my card stop me spending . I am worried that I am freak because I like teddy bears and dressing them up because it feel safe for me and I worry sometimes what other think. I recently watch a documentary where there was a young women ASD and she said she like children cartoons because they made her feel calm and I could relate to that feeling.
The other obsession I feel is bit more serious its about a guy I liked at school and college. I have not seen him in well over a eleven years but I occasionally look on his Linkedin profile to see what he up too. Over lockdown I left him a private message on fb which he has not seen yet and when we were at school in my final year I send him a love letter he really like it and I think about him a lot and sometimes I see him in my home town. I kind of wish he knew of my initial screening for ASD and that am aware my obsessions and I don't want to get in trouble with the police.
I have been waiting shy of two years since my initial screening for ASD at my local Autism hub but I have yet to see a doctor for a confirmation
