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A persistent feeling of unreality

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I’m nearly 56 but as a teenager I suddenly had a shocking sense of revelation that I was completely alone and everything I was perceiving was fabricated by my mind.  I became obsessed about shaking the torment of the thought to no avail.  I was never able to fully shake that sensation of disconnection from ‘All’.  I’m not sure what all of this is about and I wonder what a more enlightened self might say that to other teenagers out there going through similar exclusions from Life as experienced.  In some sense I died to my entire past up to that point.

One attribute of the sensation was that I suddenly could no longer trust that things existed beyond the walls of a room, people I had known no longer had lives independent of my mind.

I am aware of the implications for danger to others as a logical outcome of this insane thinking.   

Is this feeling connected with Autism? 

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  • I'm confused by this. Far from sounding insane, I would say you have had an enlightenment experience. These things you describe are the very things that all the world's greatest spiritual traditions have been teaching for thousands of years—and which only a handful of humans have ever achieved. And this death you speak of, it sounds very much like the death of the egoic self, the tiny mind created by the millions of thoughts, beliefs and perceptions that run the lives of all human beings. Only in enlightenment and in rare extreme situations are humans able to bypass this tiny mind and act from a greater source of intelligence.  If you have died to your egoic self, that means you have risen beyond your thoughts and have accessed the universal consciousness that animates everything. Sorry, I know this is not helpful, and I hope you can get a more useful answer.

  • in reply to ☕Tassimo ☕

    This is fabulous to read.  Thank you.  It makes me less likely to fight it and to think of it as a gain rather than a loss.  I can relax with it.  

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