I feel like a fraud. I have been in mental health system fir a numbers of years and it’s not working.
I realised that the aim and outcomes are based on neurotypical aims and outcomes, something I’ll never achieve and not progressing with.
I realised that I have been masking, adapting or pretending to understand as I sense that’s what is expected of me when I don’t get it. It helped when I was at my lowest depressive state but now I’ve come out of it I can see this structure just isn’t adapted or adaptable to the autistic wiring. It is causing me more angst and anxiety as it feels false.
Has anyone else experienced this conundrum? I want an autistic therapist who understands how we process, who understands alexithymia i deal with and not expect me to respond like an NT.
im considering packing it in as it’s going now where.
sigh….
