BANG!!
That's better. Really it's quite funny being taken to task by a bunch NTs who finally accuse you of being 'uncollegiate'. To be fair I don't know that they are NT's but I get that feeling - I can't say what I am talking about really, sorry. But, I am making myself useful on a website where others also work and it's great if I am left alone. But then stuff happens beyond my control and oh boy! Yes I am definitely uncollegiate, I think that's a trait in autism isn't it? So I wanted to share my HUGE SMILE at that accusation and how it definitely shows me the difference between us. The whole frame of reference for the row was beyond me - I didn't see any of it as relevant or interesting and still do not understand the hang up. I just got seven messages there - a total overload of neuro-typical expectation. I can't answer any of it. It's just a tangled ball of wool with more and more loops being pulled from it. I've left the room.
I blew it on Twitter and Facebook years ago, can't survive on a forum for more than two weeks. I've got too much of everything for most people. If you are autistic and don't know it and grow up not knowing it, you get shaped by that experience. I don't know - for me - what is autism and what is a personality disorder created by a long struggle of a life not realising. Also now realising my father was autistic and that explains everything. I have a diagnosis of ASD given as 'Aspeger's Syndrome'. I thought everyone at school was stupid, I thought my teachers were stupid. I got enormous respect for a narrow range of useful achievements and built a flimsy life entirely on that. Turns out I probably did have the highest IQ in my class and probably higher than most of my teachers - so that is now explained and I feel vindicated in a way that I can do nothing about. Which is why I explode when 'idiots' argue with me! But I'm not certain that's entirely "asperger" - I wonder who here blows up?
