Published on 12, July, 2020
Hi everyone,
Advance apologies, I just need to rant.
Just spoken with a therapist, we have had quite a few sessions and she is aware of current physical health concerns and the wait for a specialist consultation appointment. Which is in 3 weeks. She just told me that what I've been experiencing for the last 6 weeks might just go away by itself and that there might not be anything wrong. Or at least a simple and easy fix. I can understand saying that to someone who is scared about a serious diagnosis. However, I've told her so many times that I'm scared that everything is fine. Even though tests show otherwise. I'm still worried that I've messed myself, family and work around for no reason. And that if that is the case then I will have huge difficulties coping with the guilt.
Is she trying to send me back into depression. I have 3 weeks to wait for answers and I feel really unwell, the paranoia I have may sound silly, but to me it's a genuine fear that there is all this fuss for nothing.
What is the point in talking when then don't even listen!
Sorry, rant over.
i will be very happy if this is all a big mistake --- and that u dont need a new heart. but u know that already. its good to rant.
I know aidie, and thank you. My mind is a little screwy. I'm just more upset that she wasn't listening to me and didn't understand. X
You knew that already lol
screwy piklhead
i was with a therapist for 6 weeks and got nowhere