Suicide Run out of things to try to help

It’s a while since I wrote on here for myself, I’ve been trying loads of ideas to reduce suicidal ideation , but getting caught up with more negatives and discomfort such that it all feels logical to end it all. The latest thing was to try lawyers to see if my plight could be blamed on others, but they wouldn’t support me. The police have been the worst and a big bank who lost me £230000. I should have taken them to court but justice is not easy.

now I just reflect how long I can put up with this.

police convicted me for asking for help . Malicious communication implied suicide threat, for a 1 minute phone call after commencing legal actions, which the bank called harassment, they didn’t want it to happen.

doctors now just observe, Samaritans just listen , police won’t talk to me to explain. They withheld evidence at trial and made white look black. It was all about a computer scam which they made out I thought was real  and distorted the evidence. No one would believe them now and it seems cruel what they did when they knew I was vulnerable 

I feel a burden to all and humiliated and shamed. Some on here put the boot in as well, but I’m not looking for sympathy. I have frontal brain injury and can’t decide anything , but want my story recorded on the internet.

i  found a bbc lot of podcast makers who recorded an interview with me, but I suspect they are waiting for me to die and will then release some edited version to add to the media humiliation that has been  done to me. They did the interview 6 months ago and say it won’t be released until next year as it takes a long time to do a podcast series

I sound like a miserable victim……

horrible

  • The theme of the program is to show extensive permanent harm by inappropriate prosecution . How people react to that remains to be seen.

    it was pretty dramatic with George Floyd 

  • I've seen a definite change in your mood, Dave, over the past few posts. I believe you've moved on mentally from the trauma you've experienced. You know what is best for you, but a word of caution. People only make TV shows in order to create a spectacle for viewers. Many many people have been entrapped by these TV shows into confessing crimes, admitting wrongdoing or by simply being a freak in a cage for an audience to throw stones and laugh at.

    Be very certain that whatever your contribution is, that you set your red lines in the sand and you have as much editorial control over your story as possible.

  • I don’t think it’s stupid to be unwilling to to change an opinion that you know is correct. Surely that would be a stupid thing to change over.

    lol

    looks like the documentary filming will be going ahead. The Tv people are very keen to show this issue of the media and the police being inappropriate and very harmful in their actions.

    They want to show the other view. Sometimes by looking at things slightly differently completely reverses the impression one has.

    who is stupid??

    They approached me and being very persuasive with reassurances. They’re founded on awkward mental health subjects. The last one was Roman Kemp The silent emergency….

  • The definition of fanaticism is the unwillingness to change the subject. The definition of stupidity is the unwillingness to change one's opinion about the subject. None of us are perfect; we make mistakes all the time. It's not the mistakes we make that define us, but how we react to making mistakes. Whether we continue to make the same mistakes or whether we take responsibility for them, and do a better in the future.

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  • I've now got a tv company wanting to interview me for a program  about the website and the harm police are doing. Nearly killing people in the process. They are also seeing Beau Brigham in USA (Deleted by Mod)

    Whar do you think? 

  • I found newspaper articles about it from 2018 by Googling the things people have said in this thread.

  • lol what did he do? and it was in the news? is he famous? haha

  • Did your lawyers look for the scam website on the Wayback Machine (internet archive)? 

  • Are you able to give your side of the story or would that get you in legal trouble?

  • Dave. you know you were a naughty boy - your posts always hedge around the facts - you played a very high stakes game and lost.

    I'd love to see your browsing history if you get hit-men on the dark-web within 2 clicks  Smiley

  • i was browsing net one time and it had some omeagle advert box that used my webcam and put me in a video chat with someone without my consent lol not only sites are traps and dodgy but adverts are now too and adverts can be placed on all sites and find ways around your ad blocker sometimes. but yeah everyone should be using ad blockers these days as adverts are full of malware.

    • The bike accident has everything to do with this case. Distress and injustice in autism has major consequences. I was trying to procure a safe way of settling suicidal thoughts online by using scam websites. My computer shows this and I have been involved in international research on this very thing
  • I am very open and know the media and police have been dishonest. The media used it to sell their stories and the police were looking to get ££££ for their expenses from me. I know you always raise suspicion about me though

    Autistic people get frequently convicted for online activities that they thought were safe . 

  • This is the fake story told by the media. I did not select any order, I did not agree or pay anything. The website was a 2 minute click from Google, that was a trap that put that stuff on.

    I had not contacted the guy for 5 years, but was in touch with the bank he worked for , through my solicitor as I was embarking on legal action against them

  • It's an obsession that has destroyed his life, and it seems like he is still in the grips of it. He lost £300,000 from his pension because he paid for investment advice but then didn't follow it. He hounded the guy who gave him the advice and was accused of attempting to solicit his murder. He used a special browser on his computer to search the dark web and find a website for contract killings. He found one for the "Chechen mob", where he selected an order to "kill the ***" and agreed a price of £3,800 to be paid in bitcoin. He was cleared of this but found guilty of sending malicious emails and texts. It's a scary tale of obsession and greed; and the toxic relationship with money

  • Dave has not been open and honest - he knows what I'm talking about.

  • I don't know the situation here - so I'll say one thing - and then I'll pull out of the conversation - but there certainly are weird websites out there - years ago, I searched for "animations" online - I was making a PowerPoint presentation to deliver to some children - and I clicked on one innocent looking website and it started saying "downloading" - so we checked downloads - and it was downloading a load of porn onto my dad's computer - we deleted it immediately - but it still shook us up.

  • The evidence they used was from a scam website .

    Dave - you keep mentioning this scam website - are you ever going to admit what you were trying to procure?

    Your biking accident - that is nothing to do with this case - the police did not injure you - you are trying to link unrelated events.

  • Not so different to the American case of George Flloyd.