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Coming to terms with realising you are probably autistic

Ultramarine

Hi,

Sorry I've been posting on here such a lot recently.  I was just wondering if anyone can relate to this.

Did you find it hard to come to terms with, when you first realised you might be autistic?  I haven't yet been diagnosed, but I'm becoming more and more sure that I am autistic, the more I find out about autism and recognise the signs in myself.

I'm finding that it's very hard for me to concentrate on work at the moment, and I'm just feeling upset, tense and unsettled.  Also really anxious.

I don't know if this is normal or if anyone else experienced this when you were at a similar stage?

I don't know if I should try to fight it and carry on as normal, or give myself a bit of slack and try to rest a bit more when I can.

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  • Hi Ultramarine,

    I was diagnosed this year at the age of 56. I always knew there was "something" different about me that I could not understand. I am still trying to undersatand what this diagnosis means to "ME"?

    But I have to say there are a lot of people on here that have helped me and continue to do so, so done ever be afraid to ask questions to gain an understanding. It will be different for everyone, but you will find that there are similarities tha a lot of people relate to. For me it is still a process, a discovery of the real me, which can be difficult. However, I have learned, that regardless of anyone else, I now realise that this is a "Part" of me and that it has answered some questions, but raises more! I mean that in a good way. I realise I can not change the past, but I can now live in and understand The Moment, which hopefully will only improve my own understanding.

    So I suppose what I am saying, is, regardless of your diagnosis, you are "YOU" and that is what makes you unique..  I hope you find reassurance and understanding here... Welcome.

  • in reply to Markochef65

    Thank you Markochef.

    I am so glad to have found this forum; I am really lucky to be able to talk with so many other autistic people and hear how their experiences are similar or different.  At first I was a bit unnerved when reading about other people's experiences of autism, because I didn't understand what the spectrum was, so if I read about a symptom that somebody else had and I didn't, I assumed that this meant that I wasn't autistic.  But I've now got a bit better at seeing the common threads or spectrum characteristics that underlie most people's experiences.

    I hope that your continuing journey towards understanding of your diagnosis is interesting and brings you many more insights.

  • in reply to Ultramarine

    Yes and I think when you initially start reading about AS it is stereotypical behaviours.  Nuances are not mentioned. I always assumed I made good eye contact etc bUT it tales effort and iften makes me feel uncomfortable. When you live your life your way and that has always seemed normal, it's difficult to know or understand it's different to other people.  Other than a general intangible feeling of being a bit different. There are so many different presentations. Even now I feel I don't relate to a lot. But there's is also a lot I can relate to. It's not about ticking every box.

  • in reply to Ultramarine

    No need to apologise at all. You were right, the lyric didn't make me uncomfortable at all, just puzzled.

  • in reply to Martin

    Sorry, looks like I was wrong!  Hope I didn't offend anyone.

  • in reply to Martin

    my manager  sometimes says "Hows tricks"    meaning "how arethings going" it always make me pause and think "What tricks, magic tricks ??????  "

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