Coming to terms with realising you are probably autistic

Hi,

Sorry I've been posting on here such a lot recently.  I was just wondering if anyone can relate to this.

Did you find it hard to come to terms with, when you first realised you might be autistic?  I haven't yet been diagnosed, but I'm becoming more and more sure that I am autistic, the more I find out about autism and recognise the signs in myself.

I'm finding that it's very hard for me to concentrate on work at the moment, and I'm just feeling upset, tense and unsettled.  Also really anxious.

I don't know if this is normal or if anyone else experienced this when you were at a similar stage?

I don't know if I should try to fight it and carry on as normal, or give myself a bit of slack and try to rest a bit more when I can.

Parents
  • meh, i dont really care personally.... i dont even know if ill be diagnosed as autistic, but what i do know is what life has been like for me and i just dont give a toss what the label is called. it can be something else entirely different but i sure know i cant fit in or get on in life, so i care more for condition and a fix rather than whatever society calls it or whether a different label will be slapped on instead. more interested in what they can do to help more than what they call the thing.

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  • meh, i dont really care personally.... i dont even know if ill be diagnosed as autistic, but what i do know is what life has been like for me and i just dont give a toss what the label is called. it can be something else entirely different but i sure know i cant fit in or get on in life, so i care more for condition and a fix rather than whatever society calls it or whether a different label will be slapped on instead. more interested in what they can do to help more than what they call the thing.

Children
  • How long have you got to wait for your assessment?

  • Hi Caelus, I agree with you that the label itself is not that important.  I don't think I mind the idea of being diagnosed as autistic in itself, I think what makes me worried at the moment is the uncertainty in the long period until my assessment, so I can't really adjust to my diagnosis or know what it is for sure until then.  

  • and i dont even think anyone can possibly help in any way, but ill still try, consider it a challenge to the system that claims it can help people. i call their bluff, they cant help, theres no way of helping, and even if they cant help then i do some good by exposing their inability to help or change these things, and if they do help then its a positive good change i wanted...either way its all good, getting help or exposing the system as incompetent which then shows that the system instead would need to improve and change, either way each outcome has some form of progress.