• Replies 8 replies
  • Subscribers 79 subscribers
  • Views 1989 views
  • Users 0 members are here
Options
Related
Hints and tips
  • To quote someone's message, first select/highlight the relevant text, and then use the Quote button that appears
  • To "mention" someone, type @ followed by the start of the forum name, and choose from the list; that person will get a notification of being mentioned

Beginning to feel terrified

Liv

Hello,

I am new to this forum and I just wondered if any other Aspies feel the same way.

I'm a 16 year old girl who was diagnosed with Asperger's Syndrome in November, and one of the major motivations behind getting my diagnosis was so that I may receive some help for the intense feelings of anxiety I experience. However, I have not received any help so I was wondering if, by putting a message on here, I may receive some knowledge that I'm not alone.

I have suffered with anxiety all my life. My anxiety often shows up in the form of irrational fears such as of illness when in fact I have no health issues, my parents dying suddenly when I know that there is but a miniscule chance of this - and though I know the fears are irrational, I cannot be reassured by anyone, even my parents who I trust. I also do not prioritise my fears correctly. For example, I will worry about a random matter such as dying of a brain tumour having had no symptoms, but not give a second thought to my GCSE exams which are taking place in three short months. Reading this almost makes me laugh and I'm thinking, "People will read this and think you're an idiot," but no problem is unique. I'm hoping someone out there shares my experiences.

Recently, my anxiety was uncomfortable to live with but bearable. However, it has seems to have taken a turn for the worse. I constantly check on the whereabouts of my family even when I know they are safe in the house, ask for constant reassurance which I know I won't believe and "meltdown" more or less every day. I am constantly terrified and this is impacting upon my relationship with food - I often eat as a way to deal with negative emotions - and my sleep pattern. Going to bed is the most difficult time of the day for me as my thoughts seem to swirl around in the darkness and taunt me. My life has taken on a new bleakness - I didn't have much in my life to start with but I'd rather live a lonely life than one of constant fear.

I'm really not sure where to turn next. I'm hoping all this is normal for Aspies, I'm sure it is, and that's what I want to hear. Dealing with it comes later. I just don't want to be alone anymore.

Thanks for reading,

Liv

Parents

  • Hello Liv. You are certainly not alone. I am a 25 year old female, diagnosed with Aspergers 4 years ago. I have had chronic anxiety since my teens, mainly about getting a serious disease, and it got worse after I left school. Any illness you can think of, I have worried about getting or having. I often break out into a sweat, convinced I am dying. I am on edge all the time. I am scared both of getting non-contageous diseases and contageous ones. When younger, I would hold my breath until I felt faint when I was around people with illness, to prevent breathing in germs. I don't do this anymore, but I now worry that the stress is killing me, and obsessively take my pulse, and am on the look-out all the time for any pain.

    I am scared of: dying of a heart-attack or stroke. Getting *** cancer or a tumour. Getting diabetes. Scared of not being able to breath (I have no breathing problems, but am obsessed with my breathing).

    I am a healthy young adult, but all I can think about is death and disease, 24/7, and yes, it gets worse when I go to bed at night because I have no distractions.

    The medical term for it is hypochondria or health anxiety. On top of this I have OCD and countless phobias. I am scared of life, a constant nervous wreck. If only there was a therapy that could help us.

     

Reply

  • Hello Liv. You are certainly not alone. I am a 25 year old female, diagnosed with Aspergers 4 years ago. I have had chronic anxiety since my teens, mainly about getting a serious disease, and it got worse after I left school. Any illness you can think of, I have worried about getting or having. I often break out into a sweat, convinced I am dying. I am on edge all the time. I am scared both of getting non-contageous diseases and contageous ones. When younger, I would hold my breath until I felt faint when I was around people with illness, to prevent breathing in germs. I don't do this anymore, but I now worry that the stress is killing me, and obsessively take my pulse, and am on the look-out all the time for any pain.

    I am scared of: dying of a heart-attack or stroke. Getting *** cancer or a tumour. Getting diabetes. Scared of not being able to breath (I have no breathing problems, but am obsessed with my breathing).

    I am a healthy young adult, but all I can think about is death and disease, 24/7, and yes, it gets worse when I go to bed at night because I have no distractions.

    The medical term for it is hypochondria or health anxiety. On top of this I have OCD and countless phobias. I am scared of life, a constant nervous wreck. If only there was a therapy that could help us.

     

Children
No Data