Took the leap

so i done it, filled out ask my GP with my suspicions. 
kinda feel anxious as i dont want parents to know lol plus i click the "email me" on how to respond and they still usually ring me up which is pretty annoying.
that alone makes me feel anxious then the possible life changes that would come from it too. i dunno its like i want help but i dont at the same time.
id probably feel happier if they told me im daft and ignored it and life went on as usual, but then again thats not very good for the future as im just basically driving off a cliff.
logically i need a change, but now im so anxious i feel like i wanna poop, but i already pooped lol
which is kinda how you can see how someone in our position gets locked into inactivity and doing nothing. 

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  • I have been recently diagnosed and I am scared of it. My life has always been a disaster but I hoped there would be pills for it. I can't say at loud that I am autistic even to the doctor who diagnosed me. I'm scared because it will never go away. I will always have it. I will always be weird and always have problems with other people. Now I realise I was fired from work because of it. Who would hire a person with social disability? I don't know how to live. 

  • for me i never was able to get a job, i just assumed a diagnosis would perhaps come with help and more leeway for me to get a job... not that i think im suited to any job. my work gap on my cv kills it for me, hell i get machiens auto declining my cv telling me too many gaps although with one it gave me a chance to edit it so i stretched the dates of the 1 or 2 jobs i had to cover years instead of the 4 months they lasted. still didnt get job. never can. i dont know how to live either, still live with parents, i wouldnt even know how the rent payments work, never had my own place to know.

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  • for me i never was able to get a job, i just assumed a diagnosis would perhaps come with help and more leeway for me to get a job... not that i think im suited to any job. my work gap on my cv kills it for me, hell i get machiens auto declining my cv telling me too many gaps although with one it gave me a chance to edit it so i stretched the dates of the 1 or 2 jobs i had to cover years instead of the 4 months they lasted. still didnt get job. never can. i dont know how to live either, still live with parents, i wouldnt even know how the rent payments work, never had my own place to know.

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