Just exhausted

Very much so. If I’m anxious I feel very restless and find it very hard to be still. I walk about a lot when I’m anxious and like to get outdoors. At the same time anxiety exhausts me. In the last few months  I’ve regularly been going on 6 mile walks even though I’m exhausted by my anxiety before I even start the walk. But even so it helps me to go on these walks and I find the energy from somewhere to keep walking however tired I am. Walking outdoors is one of the few things that is helping me to cope at the moment. 

I’m going to try doing more of that too. I had a lovely walk around sunset last night and there are some nice views out towards the mountains from my surrounding streets. I’m massively struggling with anxiety, and trying to let go of the last irrational thread or two of hope tied up in something. But something about forward physical momentum and nice views even as one ruminates (or uses podcasts to escape from that) does take the edge off for a time. I need to take more steps anyway, I’d like to get back to my old weight some day. 

I’m sorry you’re struggling so much with anxiety - me too. It’s so exhausting isn’t it? It’s lovely that you have mountains near you - that sounds beautiful! It really does help to get out into the open air and walk. Do you walk up the mountains? 
I’m just going out for a walk now coincidentally. Normally I take lots of nice snacks on a walk but the crown has come off my tooth so I am a bit limited in what I can eat today - which is a shame!  
 
I hope you have a nice walk today too :) 

I’ve just googled Cave Hill - wonderful! Interesting shape.
l’ve never been to a gym - they look horrendous to me! I find walking very therapeutic- -my son walks really quickly and has very long legs so to keep up I definitely get good exercise! 

It’s good you found a permanent solution to your tooth issue. I love properly, PERMANENTLY solving a problem - it drives me crazy when the same thing keeps going wrong repeatedly. I’m a big fan of reliable things in general - things that won’t let me down. Less stress. 

i also sometimes like walking in the rain - although a few days ago my son and I were walking on a very exposed hill with no shelter and the rain turned into hail - quite big hail - it was genuinely painful! 

sending you best wishes for lots of wonderful walks!

I’ve just googled Cave Hill - wonderful! Interesting shape.
l’ve never been to a gym - they look horrendous to me! I find walking very therapeutic- -my son walks really quickly and has very long legs so to keep up I definitely get good exercise! 

It’s good you found a permanent solution to your tooth issue. I love properly, PERMANENTLY solving a problem - it drives me crazy when the same thing keeps going wrong repeatedly. I’m a big fan of reliable things in general - things that won’t let me down. Less stress. 

i also sometimes like walking in the rain - although a few days ago my son and I were walking on a very exposed hill with no shelter and the rain turned into hail - quite big hail - it was genuinely painful! 

sending you best wishes for lots of wonderful walks!