Why Does It Hurt *Updated*

I don't know where else to turn.

Had a therapy appointment yesterday, GP appointment tomorrow. I'm really hurting, but I can't tell anyone. The "S" word has consequences. I just can't say it, I cant cope with what might happen I'f I do.

It's ok, I don't expect any replies, I'm not after attention. I just needed somewhere I could be honest with myself.

Sorry.

*Thank you so much everyone for your kindness, you are all truly amazing people.

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  • It tells me that you (like me) have found your "tribe" of people who know what you have been going through and if you let them will eventually help you find your happy place.

    And remember, it is ALWAYS easier to help others solve their problems than it is to solve your own. A rich source of personal power and wellbeing is found in helping others. Even in simple stupid things.

    I used to feel sad for my situation and angry at how powerless I was to change it. My situation hasn't changed much, but about ten years ago, I found myself in addition to my own problems having a sixteen year old self harming, night terrors abused girl appear in my life.

    Although all my friends advised me against it, I took her in, extended every kindness I was capable of, including leaving her alone when it seemed neccessary, and she made a spectacular recovery! Apparently all she needed was a safe place to gather her wits for six months.

    I now know that my life WAS useful to someone, my skills and niceness was up to the task, and NO-ONE can take that away from me... 

  • that you have horns coming out of your head and you have a pointy  tail like my image?  talk to me in PM