# Daily Updates 2 #

the helicopter on mars has a bug in its software 

Might have a spring sale on

i'll have a look on ebay 

There's probably something out there where you could get one

hey i want a mentor

Had a weird brain fog today felt like when I wake up from a dream that felt real and you get confused as to what's real or not. It usually goes away quickly and all is normal but it was like my mind was stuck is syrup. I've just been very mentally slow and I'm now only just getting to normal. Also had my first 'mentor' call for my course and that was hard because of the above and just anxious about the call.

I visited my support bubble friend this morning, and early afternoon, to sort out his WhatsApp and Messenger. Then, I phoned him this evening. He said that he got the Astra Zenica jab in between times; from his Doctor's surgery. Perhaps this is God telling me to visit him less often.

I hope to push to buy the bungalow I saw last Friday; I'm still the highest bidder. Although, the panic I had visiting there last Friday makes me self-conscious of First Impressions lasting. Prayer will get me through.

Then I went on a bit of a spin, to a Chapel to pray and also to buy Diesel. I know that there's a Gas Shortage in America. The prices here have gone up enough; already.

nothing beats a good manager

Good day at work today - and there's been a lot going on. Think the sleep has helped a lot  - it's been quite a while since I've been this well rested.

The other thing is that I've opportunity to be self-directing and I'm not following the lead of my colleague as much (who can be pretty unfocused). Even reading (the somewhat basic) leadership book has helped me get into the right mindset for this role. 

Something that's definitely helped is that mental shift from good managers should have everything running like clockwork (desirable and totally unrealistic) to good managers work with what they have, identify issues, and influence other people to get them resolved. What is hard for me is if someone doesn't see something the same way as I do - I sometimes assume too quickly when I explain something it's been fully understood. 

Also replied to a forum post. Been a while and I've missed contributing.

i worked in a sausage roll factory for a week. Now i cant eat them ever !

I have to hoover my car tomorrow. Crumbs everywhere; Sausage Rolls. Also, I get to clean the upholstery.

mrs.snooks said:

Hard to let go of something when you realise you have to stop something because of having poor NT social skills.

I'm in a dilemma at the moment. I'm an acting manager (only of two people and they're pretty much self-managing - only took it on because I didn't want someone who didn't know what they were doing managing me) because of various staff move-arounds and although I'm enjoying it, the daily check-in meetings with all the other team leaders are hard work. 

They can take up to an hour and when the exchanges start flowing I find it exhausting just following the conversation. It's just how NT's work together on things and I find it very difficult. It's not as scary now when I feel myself closing down because I know it's my brain trying to process things but how I'm going to manage that or what adjustments could be made long term I'm still figuring that out. 

There's part of me thinking I should let it go. I've got a mentor in the wings so will probably reach out to them and talk through some ideas.

The side effects to the second vac dose really kicked in today. Felt like a dose of flu, aching limbs, super sensitive to clothing, headache, senses turned up to 11. Mind (paradoxically) not switching off. I struggled through until half four then logged off and went to bed.

Slept solid for five hours. Feel so much better now.

Bathed the dogs today.  Or rather the dogs gave me a bath.  :P

They're shedding their winter coats right now, so I'll be doing a lot of that as well as brushing them out daily and a shitload of hoovering.

Took a step closer to finishing a job that doesn't suit me at all. Hard to let go of something when you realise you have to stop something because of having poor NT social skills.

Still on the up, I have new horizons and job opportunities opening up and in a job that is an autism fit.

Got the results of my daughters spinal Xray for her scoliosis - now just waiting on the specialist appointment and hoping that Covid doesn't kick off again.

i wish i did 

I tend to keep going while stressed. So much to do at home.

i had a shutdown today ---- i didnt feel it coming  boom i was out --- 2 hours later i came around  feeling better ( sometimes i feel energised sometimes  sort of dopey )

yes thats what i call a holiday

Update from last night, midnight.

Really enjoyed sitting comfortably at home while there was a thunderstorm outside, heavy rain & lightning.  At the same time eating junk food and watching the IT crowd on DVD.