I am new here so sorry if I am ranting, I don’t know where else to turn to.
I am a 25yo female and I’m still living at home, my partner of 6 years also lives with me too.
I am feeling so overwhelmed with everything and I am struggling so bad to keep myself from completely shutting off. I keep myself in my room most of the time as it’s a very busy household in the sense that there’s always people here (other family members coming and going) I loved lockdown as the social side was limited. But as things are opening up and getting back to normal it’s completely thrown me and I can’t seem to adjust with the pressure or the expectations of the social interactions of people.
I seem to mask a lot and get burnt out very quickly hence why I retreat to my bedroom but it also means I get frustrated and have meltdowns a lot, which isn’t fair on anyone else. Luckily my partner is really understanding and supports me massively but I feel guilt all the time.
I am the only autistic person in my whole family and the rest of my family are not understanding at all and blame me for my behaviour (when things get too much I shut myself away) they are ashamed of me and it makes me feel much worse.
I would like to seek professional help from a therapist who knows autism and can help me manage and understand myself and my own feelings. I am so lost and I have no idea where to turn to. So if anyone knows what avenue to go down, please let me know. Just need a bit of guidance. Thanks 
