I’ve had a really difficult phone call this morning from a guy that I’m sort of seeing relationship wise (haven’t really felt all romantic though because of mental health issues) and he’s really keen for me to meet my family and go out to places which I understand since that is what people should do. We do volunteer together and I’m comfortable at the place we are based at, but not when we aren’t there. My anxiety however is terrible at the moment. I lost a friend to Covid last year and I’ve known people that have broken Covid rules as well. My health has been acting up but I don’t know why. There’s a lot going on for both of us right now but during this call, I felt extremely awful. He has a friend going round later today to sit out in his garden for a while. We are both autistic, he’s definitely got a much more supportive family and friend base than I have.
I’m severely depressed now for not wanting to go out and see people. Am I in the wrong? Do I need to be harder on myself and punish myself for not seeing people?
