Am I A Bad Person For Not Meeting Up With People After Lockdown?

I’ve had a really difficult phone call this morning from a guy that I’m sort of seeing relationship wise (haven’t really felt all romantic though because of mental health issues) and he’s really keen for me to meet my family and go out to places which I understand since that is what people should do. We do volunteer together and I’m comfortable at the place we are based at, but not when we aren’t there. My anxiety however is terrible at the moment. I lost a friend to Covid last year and I’ve known people that have broken Covid rules as well. My health has been acting up but I don’t know why. There’s a lot going on for both of us right now but during this call, I felt extremely awful. He has a friend going round later today to sit out in his garden for a while. We are both autistic, he’s definitely got a much more supportive family and friend base than I have.

I’m severely depressed now for not wanting to go out and see people. Am I in the wrong? Do I need to be harder on myself and punish myself for not seeing people?

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  • No. I met up with a friend after the first lockdown relaxation and over the course of the evening found out they had been to parties and they were so non-Covid adjusted that they hugged us which was pretty horrifying for me. Not meeting her again until this is all over. I'm worried you say you need to punish yourself. Lockdown has most of us anxious. The first time going to the supermarket, going on a train was incredibly stressful. You are not alone.

    There will be points where you will have to step out of your comfort zone, but do it on your terms. Pick the people you know keep themselves highly isolated and are honest with you about it. Pick the biggest space you can find and sit two metres apart. Wear your mask still if you want to. Vaccines are round the corner for most of us, he can wait a little longer. 

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  • No. I met up with a friend after the first lockdown relaxation and over the course of the evening found out they had been to parties and they were so non-Covid adjusted that they hugged us which was pretty horrifying for me. Not meeting her again until this is all over. I'm worried you say you need to punish yourself. Lockdown has most of us anxious. The first time going to the supermarket, going on a train was incredibly stressful. You are not alone.

    There will be points where you will have to step out of your comfort zone, but do it on your terms. Pick the people you know keep themselves highly isolated and are honest with you about it. Pick the biggest space you can find and sit two metres apart. Wear your mask still if you want to. Vaccines are round the corner for most of us, he can wait a little longer. 

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