Need a Butterfly Net

Thank you aidie 

watch them fly away ( Zen Advice )

There will be a period of mourning for the life you should have had - and then anger when you realise just how vulnerable you are and how naive you've been  - and how people have taken the P___ out of you all your life. 

I find it left me feeling very vulnerable to analyse my entire life through different eyes. I felt exposed and sad for my younger self in particular when thinking about childhood. 

I'm excited for you! I have tons of questionnaires I need to fill out and then it's THE appointment on the 23rd. 

THE appointment. I've already had two lengthy initial assessments answering lots of questions. 

At least I'll know what they think soon hopefully. 

Oh my gosh, It's so hard to resist the pull of Google. I'm glad you've got work as a distraction. Is your Monday appointment THE appointment, or preliminaries? I have a lot of questionnaires I need to fill in.

Praying very hard!

I would be worse if I had more time to think about it too. Don't feel bad. I was freaking out like you yesterday haha. Today I'm too busy at work to be freaking out but tomorrow I'll be back to freaking out and resisting the urge to Google the assessment to death. 

Oh, the horror - K-Nex - worst construction toy ever!    Pray for Lego!

Haha it kind of is, the build up, the anticipation. The wait almost over. I also feel scared, anxious. What if I'm hoping for lego and get K'Nex instead.

Don't you think it's exciting?   It's like Christmas - with the gift of data - you'll have a better idea of what you need to do next.  

Now I feel awful, yours is so much sooner than mine and I'm the one freaking out. 

I'm going to do this too. Mine is on Monday. 

That's a great idea Plastic! Planning my nest should hopefully distract me too. You really are a star.

At least at home you can make a nest to make yourself comfortable - less distractions for you.    

You'll be fine. 

Thank you Plastic, amazing advice. It's being done bus Skype at home 8pm. Technology freaks me out, I'm such a technophobe. Afterwards I know I will just need to be alone, I always do, especially after a day at work. I will have an easy evening and downtime prepared, as you suggested, thank you.

Thank you so much Tim! I really do work myself up over things I have no control over, which is silly really. You're absolutely right, whatever the outcome I will have a better understanding of myself, and that's all I've ever wanted. Thank you.

The worst bit will be sitting in the waiting room - smells, lights, uncomfortable chairs, other people- but that's the same as waiting anywhere else.

Once you go in, it all happens so fast that you'll be done almost without you realising - and then you'll go outside and feel knackered - and numb - you'll need to reset and unpack everything you've been asked.      

I'd be tempted to have simple food already prepared at home so you can do an 'auto-pilot' evening afterwards.

I'm on Easter break as I work in education. Leaving me with less distractions. Hope you're ok and managing your anxiety.