Is giving in to medication a weakness?

For years now I have been on a journey of discovery. Trying to understand who I am and why I feel the way I do. Really driven by the need to get rid of the anxiety and the depression that goes along with it. Over the years I have tried, what feels like, every therapy and intervention known to man. I’ve also experimented with a whole range of herbal and homeopathic remedies, in an attempt to get to grips with it. Possibly with the naive  belief I can find a magic cure and make it go away. All the time avoiding pharmaceutical medications. In many ways it is what has lead me here, waiting for an assessment.

I guess that is my point. There is so much ridding on the result of the assessment, that I’m scared that the anxiety will still be there and just be a part of me. I need to get it under control though, but feel if I give into medication that some how I have failed. Wasted the last 20+ years avoiding it. Because if that’s what it comes down to I could have taken it 20 years ago and saved myself time energy and money.

My other concern is the effects of this stuff. I did take something for about a month once. However, I stopped because I “felt” dead! Sure it made the anxiety better, but it turned off every other emotion too. It was like not being able to feel anything, it was horrible. I’d prefer to be anxious. At least I can still experience other emotions too.

Anyway, I’m rambling, which is most unlike me! Thanks 

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  • I'd be careful - taking things that affect who you are means you would not be yourself.      I was put on antidepressants many years ago and I remember just walking around in a fog - you can't be depressed because you can't be anything - life becomes a blur of existence.    I hated it.

    It's absolutely not like fixing a broken leg.

    Homeopathy really is just a scam - at best, it's a placebo.    Many people believe in it but people also believe in UFOs and ghosts.

    Herbal effects can be marginal - at least increasing the margins for Holland & Barrett - 99% profit margins.    Again - some people 'believe' but don't understand the dosing levels that you'd actually need - the classic is Turmeric - you need to eat pounds of it every day to have any measurable effect.

    You'd probably do better knowing more about the way your ASD actually affects you and then engineer your life to be kinder to yourself.

  • Just wondering why you jump in and criticize and put words in my mouth .I didn't say fixing a broken leg .

    you have done that several times now . [ do you realize you are doing it?]

    i suppose its a nt status thing .

  • Hi - sorry if you took it that way - it wasn't intended - but a broken leg is real and needs pain relief.  

    Stress and anxiety are self-created and so just walking away from the source of stress would stop the stress and anxiety.

    Most ASD people are so tied up with their symptoms that they are totally blind to the cause of those symptoms.

    BTW - I'm not NT - I'm very, very Asperger's.

  • If I had unlimited money, it would only a total lack of imagination that would be any stress - every problem can be engineered out - a wonderful life.

    I've been seriously ill for many years and they've tried them on me - Beta blockers just felt like a broken accelerator cable - no go when needed    Tranx just messed me up in lots of ways.

    I've come to the conclusion that all of them are just like painting over rust on a car - you're not fixing anything, just modifying the symptoms - and maybe adding a load of side effects too for a giggle.

    It's root cause analysis that's required - and maybe some difficult decisions.

    I don't believe taking pills is a weakness - just something you need to go into with your eyes wide open.

  • Absolutely 100% believe, like you, that it is not a weakness. I tried without pills for 6 months and was soon back in hospital. For me, they have helped. Like my Core Values, I believe it's about balance.

  • They do say" Money the root of all evil", it does give you more choice ,but the making of the choices is the hard part,  again anxiety.

    Just take children, give them everything they want, everything they ask for . see how they turn out.

    I have seen more pain through the love of money than the lack of it ,and more kindness though the lack of it than the love of it.

    Brings it all back to balance.

    Going back to the original point ,not all meds make you dopey, beta blockers ,serotonin can be useful, 

    I would agree with you that the over use of tranquilizers is wide spread and common ,but i still maintain the use of medication is not a weakness  

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  • They do say" Money the root of all evil", it does give you more choice ,but the making of the choices is the hard part,  again anxiety.

    Just take children, give them everything they want, everything they ask for . see how they turn out.

    I have seen more pain through the love of money than the lack of it ,and more kindness though the lack of it than the love of it.

    Brings it all back to balance.

    Going back to the original point ,not all meds make you dopey, beta blockers ,serotonin can be useful, 

    I would agree with you that the over use of tranquilizers is wide spread and common ,but i still maintain the use of medication is not a weakness  

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  • If I had unlimited money, it would only a total lack of imagination that would be any stress - every problem can be engineered out - a wonderful life.

    I've been seriously ill for many years and they've tried them on me - Beta blockers just felt like a broken accelerator cable - no go when needed    Tranx just messed me up in lots of ways.

    I've come to the conclusion that all of them are just like painting over rust on a car - you're not fixing anything, just modifying the symptoms - and maybe adding a load of side effects too for a giggle.

    It's root cause analysis that's required - and maybe some difficult decisions.

    I don't believe taking pills is a weakness - just something you need to go into with your eyes wide open.

  • Absolutely 100% believe, like you, that it is not a weakness. I tried without pills for 6 months and was soon back in hospital. For me, they have helped. Like my Core Values, I believe it's about balance.