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Fear

JT

I seem to develop fear about so many things. Most of my fear comes from concern about what others think of me, colleagues or old friends, so I cut them out of my life to protect myself. This has meant I've been masking in social situations for 30 years and now I don't know how to be myself in the company of others. The biggest fear atm is the idea of a NT wedding, all the different people I know in one place with all the focus directed at me & partner. Do you feel the same? What would a ND friendly wedding consist of I wonder? How can I orchestrate an event I actually want to attend, because atm the groom would be a no-show.

Today I'm due to have my covid jab, so I am awake at 4am in fear of that experience. Worried I will be the one who gets really sick from it because I have IBD as well. Have you had yours yet?

Why am I so afraid of new experiences when I'm not sure if the outcome? It's torture.

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  • I think you've collected it all up into a perfect reflection tbh. It's all about other people which is crazy when you think about it. You've spent your life working hard to provide money for yourself and your family, but ultimately, how much of that was about your well-being? Would living in a shed on a plot of land without the riggers of career, mortgage, and pressure, be too far removed from our present reality to be a bad thing?

    I'm inspired to reduce, strip back, and accept a life we should be living, that only indigenous tribes now seem to be able to sustain - and even they are disappearing fast - who don't struggle with diseases born of lifestyle, like we do.

    I want us all to just stop. Covid allowed that to happen for a brief time, but already I can see society getting back to 'normal', and expecting a different outcome. It's sad. We know the answers, but can't seem to generate a capital structure to support them

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  • I think you've collected it all up into a perfect reflection tbh. It's all about other people which is crazy when you think about it. You've spent your life working hard to provide money for yourself and your family, but ultimately, how much of that was about your well-being? Would living in a shed on a plot of land without the riggers of career, mortgage, and pressure, be too far removed from our present reality to be a bad thing?

    I'm inspired to reduce, strip back, and accept a life we should be living, that only indigenous tribes now seem to be able to sustain - and even they are disappearing fast - who don't struggle with diseases born of lifestyle, like we do.

    I want us all to just stop. Covid allowed that to happen for a brief time, but already I can see society getting back to 'normal', and expecting a different outcome. It's sad. We know the answers, but can't seem to generate a capital structure to support them

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  • in reply to JT

    That's what i was working so hard for - get everything sorted, downsize, move to the country and 'retire' from all the hassles of the world.     Be mostly off-grid, grow all our own veg, process our own water source, generate my own power - just live a very gentle life.

    I don't watch the news - so little of it is relevant to me and I have no power to change the rest - so I just ignore it.