Fear

I seem to develop fear about so many things. Most of my fear comes from concern about what others think of me, colleagues or old friends, so I cut them out of my life to protect myself. This has meant I've been masking in social situations for 30 years and now I don't know how to be myself in the company of others. The biggest fear atm is the idea of a NT wedding, all the different people I know in one place with all the focus directed at me & partner. Do you feel the same? What would a ND friendly wedding consist of I wonder? How can I orchestrate an event I actually want to attend, because atm the groom would be a no-show.

Today I'm due to have my covid jab, so I am awake at 4am in fear of that experience. Worried I will be the one who gets really sick from it because I have IBD as well. Have you had yours yet?

Why am I so afraid of new experiences when I'm not sure if the outcome? It's torture.

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  • Is it really fear (an unpleasant emotion caused by the threat of danger, pain, or harm) or is it more you have terrible anxiety and so worry (feel or cause to feel anxious or troubled about actual or potential problems.) about everything? 

    I used to mix these two emotions up. I worry about alot of things but I am not sure if there is anything that I actually fear in the proper sense of the word as I haven't really been in many dangerous situations.

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  • Is it really fear (an unpleasant emotion caused by the threat of danger, pain, or harm) or is it more you have terrible anxiety and so worry (feel or cause to feel anxious or troubled about actual or potential problems.) about everything? 

    I used to mix these two emotions up. I worry about alot of things but I am not sure if there is anything that I actually fear in the proper sense of the word as I haven't really been in many dangerous situations.

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