Getting towards final decisions

I know I’ve posted on here lots about suicidal thoughts and my situation, but I seek advice about others views.

I have been accused of awful things by the police, which were impossible and I was acquitted but have bee convicted for following my doctors and Samaritans advice to try talking to the person who triggered my suicidal deterioration, with £200,000 loss , career ending etc.

the charge is “malicious communication, implied suicide threat” for a polite 10 second conversation.

My barrister says no one else has ever been convicted for this. Talking is Samaritans recommended management for suicidal ideation  and is the national NICE recommendation.

I can’t get any media to publicise this situation and don’t seem able to put it behind me as I now have a criminal record and have been left disabled following a near fatal cycle accident 3 days before my trial was due.

should I start a website to publicise “the misuse of convicting desperately distressed people for asking for help like this?”

I realise you may be fed up with me and some will be critical, but I do feel desperate and frightened of the logic an science that makes me extremely high risk now. All doctors and authorities have classified me as “ having capacity and responsibility for my own self care” which seems their way of avoiding any legal responsibility should I not survive. 

I do feel alone and a burden on my family.

I need some hope somewhere........always feel the need to do something useful to help, but now run out of options to try 

please debate and chat about this

  • I would like to learn how you have  managed this. Could we message ?

  • courts are about keeping the status quo ,keeping everything the same ,not about right or wrong .I see that how barristers work ,they give a path for the judge to follow, when you start looking at the law there are different interpretation's so they just make a path for the judge to follow .

    I feel like i have been up and down so many times ,but i catastrophize all the time ,so live every night mare over and over ,so when it does happen i doesn't feel so bad .

    This does take a toll ,i suppose that has been my coping mechanism since about 10 ,i do have moments of contentment ,nature is a constant, a real thing, people think they are above nature ,but we are just part of it .

  • Wow and you’ve come out the other side with lots of children, a small farm and nature loving life???

    ive found the courts are like that , can twist around facts to suit themselves and never seem to understand autistic thinking.

    The truth  is extremely important to me but I’ve been abused by the police and a big bank.

  • I was charged with "malicious communication" about 15 years ago,the vicar said write a letter explaining how you feel .Was just asking to be left alone, really humble and non  threatening .but the police tryed to use it against me . The other person went to the press,next thing i know i was all over the tabloids .But it backfired on the other person as the press made up there own story making them out as terrible. 

    Never go to the press ,they just make it all up ,do there own thing.

    Then about 10 years ago had a great business ,nice home and a competitor tryed to blackmail me with unregistered design writes. Took me to court, took 4 years lied about everything ,it was a real joke barrister was a friend of the judge.

    They made it up as they went along ,i had statements  ,books which showed he didn't create the things ,i proved he lied about loads of stuff, but still lost , the judge said that he didn't threaten me, as the email was sent by yahoo, so yahoo technically threatened me .

    Lost my house ,was made bankrupt left with nothing .

    One of the only things my father said to me ,life is not fair .

    It is really hard to let go ,but you get past it in the end ,It does change how you think ,but life is about future not past.

  • Dear DaveAsperg,

    I've not been here long and so haven't been around when this has been happening to you. And as you probably know, I'm not great with communication. But I wanted to post to say hold on and don't give up. I have been in some very low places and my life is not how i want it to be, so I wanted to tell you that you are not alone.