Masking

Is masking a conscious or unconscious thing? Or can it be both? Sometimes when I’m plunged into a situation I can almost feel myself  putting on a front in order to get through the situation. Then other times, usually with more planned events, I don’t feel it as much at the time, but afterwards I am absolutely exhausted. I understand from bits I’ve read on here that that is quite common.

Be good to know other peoples experience.

Parents
  • I think it can be both. At the start, my mask was definitely a conscious thing that I had to build up but then over time I felt like it became something unconscious that I could no longer control which was not only massively draining but also left me feeling at odds with this fake person I was presenting myself as. I am currently in burnout and only very recently became aware of autism but as  says, the more you aware you become, the greater degree of control you will achieve (or at least that's how I feel). I know I will always need the mask, and suffer the consequences that come with it, but having conscious control of when and how much I use it is something I hope to do in the future.

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  • I think it can be both. At the start, my mask was definitely a conscious thing that I had to build up but then over time I felt like it became something unconscious that I could no longer control which was not only massively draining but also left me feeling at odds with this fake person I was presenting myself as. I am currently in burnout and only very recently became aware of autism but as  says, the more you aware you become, the greater degree of control you will achieve (or at least that's how I feel). I know I will always need the mask, and suffer the consequences that come with it, but having conscious control of when and how much I use it is something I hope to do in the future.

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