Hello my name is Morgan. I am 26 and I have ASD.
I was diagnosed back when i was 22 which isn’t surprising as I am female and it took many years to get the diagnosis. Once i got the diagnosis, that was it. I didn’t get offered much help or guidance and was quite confused as where to go from there.
I am in a new relationship and she’s really good for me and helps me try and understand myself.
I have recently been having meltdowns more often and when this happens i tend to i smack my head off walls which resulted me being admitted to hospital last september as i caused a hemiplegic migraine. On one of my meltdowns I also cut my leg out of frustration and when my girlfriend was trying to take the sciSsors from me I cut my face accidentally but i don’t remember doing this
My life took a pretty big change as I was in a previous relationship where i was engaged and was moving to to another country but with the pandemic and all it didn’t work out and it took breaking up with this person to see how much they were controlling me.
I just need help. I need an outlet. I spoke to my GP and they cannot offer counselling or much else at the moment as there is an 8 month waiting list that i am on since July last year and they got in touch with me this week to say it’s still 8 months from now.
I have applied for PIP in december (due to my ASD, ADHD, Depression, anxiety and IBS) to see if I can get that and then i could possibly pay for counselling. I do have a job but due to how i’m feeling at the moment it’s never a sure thing
I just feel so mentally crippled. My life will never be ‘normal’ i have obsession over things, I have huge problems with intimacy, I don’t understand when people are joking and lately it’s just all getting me down and it’s so hard because i can’t even go out because of lockdown and all the change is just driving me close to crazy
Does anyone at all know any help i can get? I’m so desperate 
