Published on 12, July, 2020
Okay so this might seem disjointed as it's late and brain isn't working too well. Anyway. I have been recently noticing that I do not know what many emotions feel like. I know this sounds strange, but I don't know what being happy feels like for example. The only one I know well is anger (I think). Does anyone else have this issue and is there a way to help you feel these things? I know it's an autistic trait but wondering about other people's own experiences. Thanks!
This whole area is confusing. Emotions, feelings, and some other word psychologists include in this.
if someone upsets me I can not experience it for a week or more, I guess I'm in shutdown. Often I don't know what I'm feeling until i tell the story to someone and they'll say "you must be upset," and then i'll know. most of the time with negative emotions i just experience being perplexed, or depressed.
i experience positive ones, but I know not as often or to the same extent as others.
I think not experiencing my emotions can lead me not to act, which can mean me being taken advantage of, bullied or not withdrawing myself from a negative environment. It's so hard!
I asked my dad the other day to not make a joke of me whilst visiting my mum...he thinks it's humour; I don't. He promptly walked out and told me not to visit him again. I've been so upset I've had quite a few shut downs and the confusion and upset have just been going round and round for days now...it's like a cycle I can't get out of.