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I was banned for writing I have no autism and that I was misdiagnosed, but instead I should be diagnosed as borderline which would explain everything. But I have no borderline and no one ever diagnosed me this. I only wrote that because I hated being loser in life and frustrated that I'll need to learn how to always maintain eye contact with other people when I talk to them, which feels like a nightmare. I'm autistic guys, I can't stop being autistic only because I write some bs in Internet, so why you banned me assuming I'm not? You didn't write to me I'll get FOREVER BAN for saying I have doubts at the moment. If you wrote I'll be banned I would write "ok, I get it, to be honest autism diagnosis is the most probable and almost certainly good". I'm autistic, just I had emotional breakdown, why you are so cruel to mercilessly ban me precisely in moment when I need support the most? I can't rationalise how it could be perceived as just in any way.

I was banned for writing I have no autism and that I was misdiagnosed, but instead I should be diagnosed as borderline which would explain everything. But I have no borderline and no one ever diagnosed me this. I only wrote that because I hated being loser in life and frustrated that I'll need to learn how to always maintain eye contact with other people when I talk to them, which feels like a nightmare. I'm autistic guys, I can't stop being autistic only because I write some bs in Internet, so why you banned me assuming I'm not? You didn't write to me I'll get FOREVER BAN for saying I have doubts at the moment. If you wrote I'll be banned I would write "ok, I get it, to be honest autism diagnosis is the most probable and almost certainly good". I'm autistic, just I had emotional breakdown, why you are so cruel to mercilessly ban me precisely in moment when I need support the most? I can't rationalise how it could be perceived as just in any way.