Dismay at the 'looking at things positively'. It may work for some but others of us draw strength and resilience through other ways - be it bile or 'hitting the floor' first. Some of us have our own ways of dealing / barely dealing.
Dismay at the NHS way of doing things. The NHS can be quite business-like and mechanical. I don't agree with a lot of the ways the NHS handles things. I offer no solutions. Some of the lack of open-mindedness when it comes to health does suck a bunch.
My writing career ended at the end of last year. However, *** it. One day it might recover. Maybe next year I'll die. Who knows. That's my way of dealing with a lot of sh*te I can't control. It's not massively productive but sometimes being that negative gets me through another day or week. For some of us that's the best we've got sometimes.
Emotionally repressed dad born in the 1940s, I have one of those too. Funnily (or not so funnily).
It's bollocks at times isn't it?
That's as good as I can give. Take it easy - which is as dumb a phrase as I can imagine but all I mean is that I hear you and your words mean something to me and you mean something to me. I look in on your posts and I like your humour and I feel similarish things when life is sucking.
Oh, and when I had massive digestion problems and saw even a private doctor who prescribed a load of useless, expensive stuff and I eventually ended up successfully self-diagnosing the problem as 'simply' anxiety. I don't mean to say that this will be the same for you - just that sometimes we can be our own best doctor (sometimes). Probably not helpful but I've learned that 'me + search engine + plenty of time and drive to research' is often ten times better than the doctors assigned to me.
I feel trapped. I don't know if there's any way forward for me. All around me people are telling me to be positive who have more than me. I feel people are rubbing it in my face. My sister is smug towards me I feel, she has had a boyfriend for years, and always speaks to me like she knows everything because I'm the youngest sibling and she's the oldest.
My father is an emotionally repressed person who is a happy person but I find him insensitive. He was born in 1940 and like most baby boomers he's always had it good, when he was young there was tons of opportunities, houses were cheap, he owned a Jaguar car, he has no understanding at all of what it's like for younger people now. He seems to judge me on his own era's standards, doesn't think I'm someone equal to him because I haven't done the things he has.
My writing career is not going as successful as I hoped. My physical health is not that good. I feel let down by the NHS in asking them for help with my indigestion, fatigue and runny nose problem who only give drugs and very rarely do anything innovative like surgery or gut implants.
I know us folks miles away on computer and laptops are not the same as in person people but a fair few of us think about you and want you to be ok and things.
I know how it feels to not feel as loved as one would like and feeling alone. It does suck.
