There's a magazine called Asylum Magazine which is a mental health magazine. I'm published in the latest edition, the Autumn 2020 issue. My article is about my experiences of falling in love with a GP, counselors and other professionals and why I think relationships with clients should be allowed. It gives some of my personal story and also my philosophy on life and love.
That's probably the biggest success I've ever had getting that published. My personal life feels not so great. I'm drinking heavily because I'm bored, depressed, heartbroken and annoyed with little things every day. My dad winds me up because he has dementia and behaves in an often stupid and loud way. My mother won't accept any criticism of him, she must love him too much.
So I feel somewhat confined in my home to my bedroom. I haven't any friends in this town and am unable to work for mental health reasons. I don't care to stop drinking alcohol as my anxiety is worse without it and it helps sedate me against the hopelessness I feel surrounded by.
I'm hoping my article will lead to good things - an offer to write regularly for a magazine or newspaper, or some other unusual career opportunity that I could actually manage unlike a normal job, and love with the woman who inspired the article, and recognition and friends. My confidence is low, I don't feel I belong well in mainstream society. Could this be the wheel of fortune spinning in my favour now?
