I miss a woman. What else can I say?
I miss a woman. What else can I say?
I know this reply is probably useless but I couldn't ignore your post. I don't really know what to sat as I know, unfortunately, no words will take the pain away.
I hear you though, for what it's worth. I hope you are able to feel happier soon. Please take care and keep reaching out.
I totally relate to how you are feeling here and really feel for you. Matters of the heart are so complicated for those of us with asd so when we find someone who really understands us it becomes even more complex, especially in your case as your therapist is "forbidden" because of the law. The reason she gets you and understands is because she has been trained, which you know but that doesn't make it any easier. In the past I've been to see several therapists and there was one who truly got me and knew me... really truly knew me. She was amazing and I wanted her to be with me because I knew that I would never find someone like her again. I told her all this and she basically explained about professionalism and that she was just doing her job which led to instant heart break.
I really feel for you right now because I can kind of imagine what your going through. I know what it's like to be feeling her on your head every second of the day to the extent that you can't even sleep. But my advice is to talk to her about it and then try to move on because deep down you know, just like I did, that the law isn't going to change and she's never going to feel the same way. It sucks and I thought it massively unfair but life is often that way.
Maybe one day the law will change. It should. Therapists honestly loving patients would be fine in my opinion so long as it's true love. Hope you can move on from this. It's going to be a struggle but I know you can do it.
I like what your mum says and appreciate your offer, so here goes.
I fell in love with my counselling psychotherapist while I was receiving 6 weeks of therapy. She is beautiful, intelligent, educated and sensitive. I feel lost without her. She was like a light coming on in the darkness I'd been living in. I've talked to other women recently and they don't make me feel the same. I've tried dating websites, pubs and other ways but I don't meet women I have any connection with. I call the Samaritans about 5 times a day because of how much it hurts. I've written an article that's getting published in a mental health magazine in the autumn which is about my experiences of falling in love with a therapist and why I think the law needs to change, to allow relationships between the therapist and client. As I explain in the article, not many women are able to understand as they haven't got the psychological depth or training. I can't help being in love with her. I'm bored most the time every day. When I hear love songs I think of her and get upset. Anything on TV involving love reminds me of her. Today I tried playing a video game and switched it off after 10 minutes.
John Lee Hooker - Lost a Good Girl
Whenever I tell someone the story, they dismiss what I say. It just hurts so much but no one gets it. They can't see it from my perspective. The law says her and I can't be together because of the rules of professionalism. As far as I know everyone disagrees with my point of view. So if I tell you the full story you will dismiss what I say like everyone else, and I'll still feel upset.
