I seem to be unable to make and keep friends. I don't fit in with anyone and always end up with people who are strange. Not being nasty, but honestly, I always end up with friends who are very mentally ill.
One friend is constantly on about her health.
One friend is massively over weight and thinks only of herself. I invited for dinner once and she never said thank you. I've always been there for her but when I needed her, she didn't help me.
Another was under psychiatrist and would write very odd messages to me that made no sense.
Another was eccentric and her dog would pee on my floor and she didn't notice, she would laugh and spill wine but not notice.
When I make friends with successful people I am not accepted and feel out of place, I think because I'm more timid than many or I end up getting pushed around by them.
So I am alone all the time. Don't get me wrong, I have cared for my friends but just notice I can only keep the broken ones. When I was younger, I always felt like a Raggy Doll (old cartoon) I always felt I was one of them and so are my friends.
I am 46 and very alone and this really gets to me. Anxiety plays a big role in fitting in and I enjoy mu own company as I am not criticised or nit picked at. Makes me feel hated by everyone and no one cares.
