My depression continues

I told a GP I was suicidal one time and I fell in love with her. I went to see her again and cried as I said to her I didn't want to be without her. Then she had a talk with the other doctors and got me booted out of the surgery. I don't trust the NHS.

Hi Roswell,

I'm really sorry to hear that you've been having these thoughts. it’s good that you’ve let us know how you feel. 

If you are unable to cope with the distress or despair, it’s very important to tell someone about your feelings or thoughts. Call your GP and make an urgent appointment. Your GP can make sure you get appropriate help and support.

If it’s outside your GP hours call  111  to reach the NHS 111 service:   http://www.nhs.uk/NHSEngland/AboutNHSservices/Emergencyandurgentcareservices/Pages/NHS-111.aspx 

The Samaritans also provide confidential non-judgemental emotional support, 24 hours a day on 116 123, or by email on jo@samaritans.org.

MIND have information pages on coping with these feelings based on the experiences of people who’ve been through it that you may find helpful. 

If you need help with an autism related issue, our helpline can be emailed via webform https://www.autism.org.uk/services/helplines/main/questions.aspx or they’re open Monday to Thursday 10am-4pm and Friday 9am-3pm on 0808 800 4104. 

ChloeMod.

Every day I'm in pain and the people hurting me get away with it. No one understands what I'm telling them, even therapists and people supposed to help me.

One day I'll be dead and I won't be able to read words like the ones here anymore. That's a relief. I'm a grain of sand in the hourglass of time. If only I could find a way to escape being aware of all these awful bullies around me.

I often feel that there is something wrong with this world.

I feel the world does not work.