no longer seem to have a place in this world

I've not written for a while , as I wait for the legal process that has convicted me for autistic actions. I sit around all day, not doing anything useful. My wife and children are very lovely, but I am a burden for them. My autistic focus has been suicide prevention, but I was arrested for that as the police didn't understand my actions. They waste loads of public money and ruin the lives of us - Gary McKinnon and Lauri Love.

Just checking in but don't know I can survive much longer.

Any ideas I haven't tried or anyone know of a media person who I could tell my story to?

George Floyd was killed by police and understanding autism is not good

https://www.timesfreepress.com/news/national/international/story/2020/jun/05/killing-palestinian-man-autism/524597/

  • No that was a nice idea, that I try. I have done hundreds of psychological techniques, but that was why I was arrested and police made out it was not a psychological technique, but that I was seeking to harm someone through a scam website trap, which I got caught in. They should have better things to do with their time than that. I've started to write the book, but now realise it is not easy and would hope for some help as Gary McKInnons mother had for www.amazon.co.uk/.../184954574X

  • Sorry, I didn't know you were already in the media.  Maybe it would be therapeutic  and financially viable to write a book of your life story, both to expunge the bad thoughts and to tell your side.

    But I don't know what else to say. I feel very unqualified. I don't want to delete my comment though, because I think threads with deleted comments are a bit unnerving to look at. Hopefully you can just ignore it.

  • I've been brutalised  by the press and the police...……….. throughout the world. They did camp outside my house ( in their cars) and the police would do nothing about it. As autistics we are not understood and are made out to be something we are not especially by the media and police. They have never written about the harm caused to me by their actions. It was like Caroline Flack, who was life threateningly distressed and who only did a minor assault on her boyfriend, but had life threatening injuries herself and was under a psychiatrist, but the CPS decided to wind her up more with an humiliating prosecution. I could tell some her story and why she took her life - shame and injustice, which the police are guilty of

  • Hello, I think being in the media is difficult for anyone , let alone autistic people, and it could ruin your life.

    i mean this in the kindest way, can you look closer to home and become useful for your wife and kids?

    It sounds as though they do it because they love you, can you be lovely for them? 

    maybe that's all they want, not money or action-dad. 

    The media must surely be a last resort.  You could be trolled and all sorts. Imagine if the press camped outside your house.  How would your wife and kids feel ?