I'm still shaking, my anxiety is at breaking point.
Today when I was out getting groceries I was driving through an estate and it was all normal and then I saw something pink walk out in front of the car. It was a little girl. She can't have been any older than 7 or 8. My ocd is bad anyway and I always make it a rule to obey the speed limit. Because I was doing the correct speed the car stopped in time and she just stared at me blankly with that innocent smile kids have. I got out and asked if she was ok, she nods. I ask where mum and dad are, she says they are at home and she's just going out to buy her dad a pack of crisps. And I'm like what the heck! I saw the girl safely across the road and waited until she came back with the crisps, saw her across the road again and then she went of to the flats.
I got back in the car and then broke down. Anxiety flared up proper bad and I'm at home now but still shaking like a leaf. I parked my car in that street and walked home I couldn't face driving it again and I don't know if I will be able to anytime soon. Seeing that girl walk out like that it was so scary. I really thought I was going to hit her, when the car was stopped she was an arm's length from the bonnet. I can't get her or the horrible moment from my head and now my anxiety is awful. Nothing is stopping it. I've listened to music, done yoga and taken tablets but it still bad.