im isolated only see x wife an daughers on disablety guess i have it ok there know lot bout this my son is autistic mom used to say the only difference in him an me when i was young was i could talk just didnt want to my brothers granddaughter also autistic/ my son still cant talk good but hes ok lives with his mom there lots i would like to help him with but right now cant help mayself school was a dezaster for me i remember alot the stairs i got form other kids an adults i thought they didnt like me but learned when i saw my freinds looking at my son the same way i knew they just didnt understand but queit when in 9 grade got job in contruction worked with some good people i didnt very good had masters hvac licence but after runing a company for few years started dreaming of falling off latter an roofs drove me crazy in 2000 my father died of cancer an i let the doctor put me on depression an antiaty meds the world soon started spinning out of control had some problems with drinking an drugs for a time had suiide atents for awhile found confort in cutting mayself but think it had a lot to do with the meds ive been off the meds for years not an am dealing with my other health problems ive had two cansiler in thats time that help one died other changed jobs an moves i havent been able to connect with anyone else my family have there on problems an i feel they have tryed to help anuff i so want to see them last time i talked to my brothers had good time but got so excited i got sick at stomack an had an atack the atacks are painful there just like irrable boul sindrome sometime my pancrius levels are high an the er well help sometime its not an they dont help im on a juice duet now thats helping but liver disese to think its getting bad but i just cant deal with the doctors anymore just cant i want to see my family with out getting so excited want to be calm an talk with out worrying ill say something an sound crazy or dum but was thinking would it help if they knew if a doc would say im autistic in 19 years none of the would said what my probelm was not bypoler theyve tryed so many meds on me never found the magic pill dont believe in it now a pill that fixes everything is a meth what do i do to far for me to drive to nashville to get tested would it help anyway i would welcome any sujestions thank you
