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It is getting harder to speak

Beefree

Hi.... I am just wondering if anyone else has ever experienced this...... I am experiencing quite a lot of stress at the minute, because of my work I am managing quite a lot of risk and I don't have access to my normal regulating activities. I am guessing there are lots of people. In the same position.

In the past high levels of anxiety have caused me to become quite restrictive in my eating habits.... But this time I am experiencing something different. I am finding it increasingly hard to speak. I don't have a sore throat or anything it just feels like words are getting choked up in the back of my throat and I can't make the sound come out. I really want to stop talking altogether and have to force my self to speak and I am only doing this when absolutely necessary at work. People have started to notice as normally I have quite a lot to say for myself.

Has anyone else experienced this.... I am worried if this continues I might become mute. 

  • in reply to Plectrum

    Yeap I can work.... I am a keyworker. To be honest as well as this being stressful I am grateful I can do something valuable and it also helps with keeping a routine. Because I live by myself it also means I still do have some human contact which is important as if I didn't I think I would really struggle with re-establishing it. I understand your concerns about going back to your workplace completely. Also the sheer panic when you can't find something.... I get this about anything and everything for example the other day I had a half eaten chocolate bar.... put it down to do something and then I couldn't find it again it was torture until I eventually found it. I know and can rationalise in hindsight how unimportant a half eaten chocolate bar is but at the time I can not focus on anything else until it is found. Honestly it feels like my brain is a gift but it is also a malice at the same time!

  • in reply to Beefree

    I have my routine, but I'm sleeping badly wondering about all the dark thoughts and bad things that could bd ahead. It's quite suffocating isn't it?  I keep imagining there won't be a desk for me when I get back to the workplace, or they have moved of thrown away my stuff while I've been home. Stupid pananoid things mixed up with more likely ones. I had a panic yesterday because I could no longer remember where I left my jacket. Then there is all the contamination stuff. 

    Are you able to work, or are you forced to have more contact than is safe? 

  • in reply to Anthony

    OK.... I guess my work is keeping me occupied which is good and also maintains some routine which is also a protective factor for me... even though it is stressful. Take good care...

  • in reply to Beefree

    Struggling but getting by. Other than what you’ve put in this post, how are you coping? 

  • in reply to Anthony

    Thanks for your reply Anthony... Yeap there is lots going on and I am pretty anxious about keeping everyone who I work with safe.... I hope you are doing OK

  • in reply to Plectrum

    Thank you plectrum it is nice to hear from you too. I am sorry you are experiencing something similar.... I try to see and focus on the good things that are still happening around us... The awesome spring flowers and generally how many people are being much more considerate of each other and the people in our local communities.... but it is still tricky. I hope you are finding some peace in some small way in the current situation. Take good care and thanks again for your reply. 

  • I have on occasion - usually because I am over stressed/ anxious or there’s too much going on.

  • Hi Beefree, nice to hear from you but sorry about the circumstances. I'm experiencing something similar. In my case, my partner comments that my face and voice have become increasingly flat and expressionless. I feel its hard to generate any expressions. My face and throat feel stiff. Just like you mention, a kind of dread is hanging over me and feels like my systems are shutting down.