I am 25 years old working full time as a service engineer repairing motors, fans and pumps for industrial buildings. I have A levels in History and Geography and decided not to go to university and did part time work at Sainsbury's as well as my studying a BTEC in engineering to get this job. Doing a BTEC is the same as A levels which I took a year after finishing college. Growing up was such a struggle for me as I made more enemies than friends. I was bullied at school and at college it was slightly better and since then I have improved with friendships but all my peers and relatives in my generation ended up going to university whereas a year after I left I did my BTEC. This made me feel inferior as some people told me its better to university as they give you opportunities for higher paid jobs meaning a better life. A few of these people who ended going to uni did not get alone well with me and this led to me having rivalries with family friends and relatives. Also what upsets me as well is when I get alone with someone with the opposite sex and fall in love with them and as it progresses she rejects/blocks me for no reason. All these thoughts and experiences of being different and being an outcast and loser have made me feel very depressed in life. I have feelings of wrath and sorrow when I see my peers achieving such huge success in life such as them getting married or graduated from university which I often see as equivalent to the coronation of a monarch. Would anyone be able to give me advice as to how I can improve relationships with certain people such as your crush and how I can get a career which is professional or skillful without needing to take a degree or extra qualifications.